Omg, this is exactly 100% me, so much pain and suffering. I have very big bold M’s on both my hands and the crescent moon, I have had such suffering since I was born, and my mother often told me “I was nothing but trouble and even before I was born I was trouble”. My first trauma was caused by my mother, she was a narcissistic control freak that broke me as a small child. She was a Leo born in the year of the Tiger which means she was a very controlling and domineering person. I am definitely a person that will fight back against oppression, having been through all of what he says my entire life. I am very honest and sincere, yet never fitting in, not that I even want to fit in now, I was always rejected and my life path has been made very difficult and very painful. It feels very much more of a curse than a blessing, but I refuse to be anything but spiritual and honest. Even within my family I am seen as Cassandra, no one believes or acknowledge my psychic abilities and predictions, including warnings that I give them. My family don’t even read my predictions or even care about them. Not just that there were a couple of psychics that had been sabotaging my name in town, even though I have countless repeat clients and many clients globally for over 20 years. I am very grateful for all of my dear clients and have a genuine and sincere care for every single one of them and they know that. They always tell me they are very grateful for the readings and the reassurance I give.
Is it any wonder that in the past 11 years I have lived like a hermit, I don’t socialise with anyone now. But I am still here serving humanity. And yes, darkness has definitely put blocks in my path making my psychic predictions going mostly unread by the public for the past 7 years. Having had to create an entirely new blog and an entirely new website put me back to square one again when I had a very good reputation and following only to have to begin again. This has badly impacted me and I almost threw it all away, even recently I have been thinking of giving up. Suddenly I get an influx of readings, each time I think about retiring because of the difficulty I have been put through, this happens. This week was one of those times where I was thinking it’s just not worth the effort, and suddenly the phone started ringing. If spirit is really wanting me to do this work then lift the blocks and stop the satanic attacks on me like I keep asking for.
Pushing a spiritual person to the edge and repeatedly testing them is just not on, nor is it a loving benevolence on behalf of the spirit world as far as I am concerned. I feel it’s more about having complete control over people that live a good and spiritual life. My spiritual and moral compass has always been very strong and very important to me. Spirit knows this but still screws me around, enough is enough. I refuse to be tested any further, my sincerity stands from my entrance into this godforsaken world and the spirit world knows this, otherwise why make me incarcerate for this purpose and make life difficult in every single aspect? The spirit world is not what people believe it to be either it is, to be polite, it is dualistic and there are deceptions and half truths. Not to mention the cold indifference to all human suffering or the animal kingdoms suffering especially at the hands of humanity.
The beings controlling the 'spirit world' have never incarnated and have no intention of doing so. How can they judge us especially going through tremendous pain, suffering and loss. We are fed nonsense and deliberate lies and by beings that we can never actually come face to face with and demand accountability either. What we are fed by the new age and spiritual movement is unverifiable indoctrination. I speak from experience first hand here too. I am firmly tell the truth and shame the devil by nature and while I agree with most of what this man in the video says he does not touch once on the crucial information of the control over humanity by a very questionable spirit world and the behind the scenes reality of what really goes on, which is very anti humanity and breaks all the rules of cosmic law too.
By spending time reading metaphysics and from experience in this realm one knows this to be true, anyone that disputes this clearly does not have the knowledge nor experience to understand or to have an open mind on metaphysics. Everything in the universe is dualistic and manipulated.
I don’t give up who and what I am either, I don’t have the choice other than to go forward. I refuse to offer anything other than truth and honesty. Spirituality must have substance, honesty, purity and integrity. It is not to be manipulated and constantly tested when one has made a serious and honest commitment to living a good and honest life, harming no one and intending to harm no one. One does not allow oneself to be treated poorly like a doormat either because that is abuse of the self. We have the right to defend ourselves and our values from others especially when they intend harm.
From childhood I have spent time helping others, but disregard once others get what they wanted, even from relatives. I am now at a more awakened state that I now need to claim back my spiritual power and heal myself from all my trauma. Maintenance mode is a slow process that takes years to recover from. Nobody by my side to support me either, but I am woman hear me roar, I will survive because I don’t have the choice, I must go forward.
For several years I keep getting the dreams that tell me that good things are coming to me, year after year but I am still waiting for the suffering to stop. I know who I am, but that doesn’t mean that darkness will not put blocks in my path. I may be on the right path and my energy is rising but the blocks affecting my work are not lifting. I have a divine feminine birth number and the marks on my hands of divine feminine energy marks on my hands, but the difficulty never stops.
We live in the heavy and dark third dimension, you could refer to it as Hell. Which is more fitting given the heavy energy here and the constant violence, but not just that. The physical body is a tomb of death which suppresses spiritual energy and real spiritual growth, it also cuts us off from pure source from the all that is.
Many years ago I was shown what happens to us in the spirit world, may be a year or two before the movie Avatar was made in 2009. I had only been working professionally as a clairvoyant since January 2006 at that stage and highly sensitive already, with dreams and visions going back to childhood. I was shown big black tanks, like sensory deprivation chambers of coffins. there were no windows on them either just a solid black lid and that looked like big black coiled plastic oxygen tubes coming out of the back of them. All of the tanks or chambers were placed in a circle in a very low lit room with a dim blue light. The shade of blue was somewhere between cobalt blue and sapphire blue, there was a main machine in the middle of the tanks that was like a tall pillar type of life support machine. I also noticed a glass wall partition between this room and what was an observation room, kind of like when you go for an MRI Scan. I stood next to the male guide showing me this. I don't know what he said to me but I remember being stunned at the sight, as if it was one of life's mysteries being revealed to me. This was like our real bodies in these tanks, but our consciousness was here on earth in animated bodies. That memory has never left me. But we don't have a physical flesh body in spirit, we have a light body which is also artificial. That light body is never a permanent body it is used for incarnations and to move around the non physical worlds only. After that is dropped we are an energy being only, or consciousness. The false personality and ego departs then because they hinder spiritual growth, so it is said. Mind you Spirit is supposed to be perfect, we are told this in spiritual teaching, and when we descend into mass and matter the the negative traits, spiritual amnesia and ignorance begins.
Don't you find all this contradictory is a being was perfect at the start, then you put it through all this un necessary suffering and perpetual reincarnation that is clearly designed to harvest our spiritual energy through, vices, addiction, greed, envy, and lust. That cannot be done supposedly in the true spiritual multiverse according to ancient texts. Truth and facts become very confusing when dealing with metaphysical and spiritual teachings. All the so called experts learn everything parrot fashion and spout it as truth and gospel. So where is the truth of all of this? I sure don't know, none of us do and we have absolutely no proof of anything other than what we are told. That is not good enough for me!
I am done being tested, suffering and being lied to. Shame the devil I say.
One cannot evolve much when in this dark and heavy energy dimension and as I have previously pointed out in other posts, humanity can only evolve so far and then it goes into crash and burn mode, nor do we have much free will. We have been in this crash and burn mode from the beginning of the 20th century at least, perhaps longer than. Around us right now it is very obvious, yet humanity is not learning the lessons and will just keep on repeating the pattern indefinitely due to darkness and ignorance. Spiritual decline is what keeps this reality functioning feeding the archonic demons and dark Et's that have a vested interest in keeping humanity suppressed. Religion and spirituality are a couple of the primary tools used in the total enslavement and destruction of humanity as is ignorance, indifference and hate, add to that the constant division between genders and cultures leading to the divide and conquer of humanity.
Do not think for one minute either that the golden age of Aquarius (the great awakener)is going to be any better either. Aquarius is ruled by the planet Uranus, while it represents the freedom/escapist urge, is humanitarian and scientific, technological, futuristic. Uranus is sudden and unexpected and often violent, utopian and rules dictatorships, rebellion, isolation chaos and egoism. Think brave new world and 1984 or the new world order. Not many people stop to look at that aspect and will take an escapist outlook rather than face the reality. The rich will always have the power not the masses to think otherwise is delusional, so nothing will change in that respect ever!
